Slavery

Slavery has no color. Slavery is about oppression, suppression, oppression, depression and recession. What is that it's called a machine a bank that U allowed to write it's own rules on marked up principal with fee's like fleas and taxes. U passed laws to insure everything. That's the biggest God damned hoover vacuum cleaner of an industry to industrialize mankind.

Greg stuck me in a backwards L shaped house. The biggest God damned fixer upper U have ever seen. This house had no character and no charm. It was literally split into 3's. Greg didn't even know how to swing a hammer. It was a 5 years after, I found out from Greg's dad that the boys never had chores. How does any of this add up? It didn't. I got lectured by these people constantly whenever I would look at an object or item, if I looked in a magazine for ideas, all I heard from these people how I just want to spend money. Elaine literally put a price on everything I said.

Greg couldn't balance a check book or change oil in the car. He didn't even understand that U have to change the filter every time or the dirty filter washes back into the clean oil. Greg had never swung a hammer nor did he know anything about remodeling and yearly maintenance on the house.

I discovered I was pregnant by 3 weeks. I always got pregnant in the spring. I knew I was pre3gnant from that deep dizzying fatigue. I couldn't kep my eyes open without trying to get up and just dropping back into a deep sleep. Our friend Debbie was visiting from California. Greg went to Kirkland to visit her and left me behind. He calls me and then he shows up back at his parents house insisting I go to Kirkland. He was telling me I was being rude. I am not a rude person by nature, This was Greg's unrealistic expectations. He didn't even acknowledge my pregnancy or act happy toward me.

We bought this house when I was about 4 months pregnant with Alex. All the work I did just in those couple of months until she was born is this.
First thing we did was put in a wood stove where the fire place was. The wall above went unfinished for a year, until Tanner whom was a drywaller told me how to do it myself.
I found a 3 way mirror on clearance and I found a pedistool sink the same day. Greg and his father took out the old mirror in the bathroom, yet they didn't replace it with the new one. I'd get a migraine every time I walked by. That smell of death under neath our house. I had to call Greg's dad back to put it in because Greg wasn't going to do it. 

I almost miscarried Alex at four months. I was supposed to go on full time bed rest, I couldn't do that I continued to work full time. We car pooled in one car. My new car that I paid for. I counted 9 ant hills on our way to work every morning. Greg got off later so I'd have to ride the bus to Greg's work and wait for him to get off, or I'd drop off Greg and take my car with me and pick him up.

I had to put on a garage sale for Greg's client. People I did not know. Greg volunteered me and told me I need to do my part. That wasn't the first time I heard that from Greg. It was the river of snakes in California. I had already put in over time for the week and we were still at our destination early evening on Friday. It was my new car and that camping gear was purchased by my father and grandmother. I was the last to sit down b4 we unloaded the car. James and Xavier got up first and headed for the car. Greg walks by and said what are U doing just sitting there, U have to do your part. I didn't even have furniture yet in my own home.

Greg and Elaine always had an idea for extra money and that idea usually involved me. I was sewing flax packs for Elaine for extra money. No I never got paid.

I did the nursery for Alex in five months. When I went to look at nursery sets in a magazine getting ideas. My mother in law said, U just want to have nice things and spend money. I was just getting ideas most of what was in my house, I did with my 2 hands. I had to or else nothing got done. Greg literally stuck me in this house when I had 2 houses that were finished for the same price , that I wanted instead. Greg wanted more bang for his buck. That was me, because Greg knew when he married me that I was the Jack of all trades.

The only true thing that Greg said to me was that if I didn't agree with him he would just come in and take it. He did just that with Mary Stone, in a 90 day period.

By 7 months I was still sitting on the floor. Greg had no concept or interest in getting furniture. At 7 months while working full time, sewing flax packs, remodeling the bathroom and the nursery, I had to go on my own shopping for furniture. I hit every furniture store from Kirkland to Sumner until I found the quality vs. the price. I did this on my own.

We had to replace the oven and my refrigerator was a small refrigerator under the counter. I had to get a used small refrigerator to fit under the upper cupboards. It was the kind with an old fashioned ice box that I had to melt the ice out constantly.

During this time Greg couldn't miss a party. No Greg don't stop the party just like his mother. UC Elaine U raised Dexter. Do U know the difference between a psychopath and a sociopath? Sociopaths don't like to get there hands dirty. They prefer U 2 put the weapon in your own hand and point the finger. He is a deflector, who literally sabotaged every job I did. Every time it came down to him doing his part, he didn't do what was agreed on. He did this in our office and at home. I would leave to my families during family emergencies up I-90 and down I 5. We were on our way to our friend Kelly's house for our yearly Christmas party. I got hit with a migraine on our way there. The Gateway, Kent, Washington.The old fashioned kind. Greg wouldn't turn around. He told me it would be rude of me. This was about 3 weeks b4 Alex was born. Greg got drunk on royal crown with some shmuck that the only time this guy spoke to Greg was when he wanted something. Alcohol or an adjustment. I needed to go to the ER. NOOOOO! Greg got drunk and I had 2B his designated driver. I was Greg's designated driver for over 10 years. I wasn't allowed to tie one on or loosen up and have fun bcuz Greg would lecture me. It was okay for him. I didn't really like alcohol. It made me sleepy and gave me a headache.

Right B4 Christmas penny pinching Greg wanted to save 10 bucks. Instead of paying 20 bucks for a tree. He took me and my 2 dogs up into the mountains. It was a rutted road and I was very pregnant. It was so cold my dogs were screaming. Greg insisted we cut down a tree ourselves. He made me carry that tree out of the forest with him.

I received an armoire from my aunt and uncle for the nursery. I repainted it white. It was sitting in the center of our kitchen floor for a couple of weeks. Greg told me I needed to finish it. Take note he could of finished it, but it wasn't his job somehow it became mine. While standing in the kitchen late one night after work, Greg stood over me and lectured me about not opening the window while pregnant. Note my kitchen blinds as well as the whole house the blinds moved they were so old and leaky. He said God how can do that to your own child. Yet what about the mother Greg? When I asked Greg to put the doors back on he did but he couldn't even bother to put them back on straight. He didn't care about anything but himself and his image.

One evening we were watching a comedy, and it was a pregnant woman in a hospital yelling at her husband, U did this 2 me. Greg told me that I am not to blame him for the pain or he would walk out and leave us. Does this sound like a nice guy?

I also became extremely allergic to dust mites while pregnant with Alex. I was up most nights coughing and sneezing. Until about 7 months. I had to treat my house on my own.

I was 19 and half hours in labor on my own in the spare bedroom. Greg slept on the couch. He wasn't there with me during any of it. I don't even know why he bothered to go to Lamaze class? When I came out to wake him off the couch at about 4 30 in the morning. I fell to my knees with a contraction holding my abdomen. Greg stood up over me and asked if I'm sure I'm in enough pain in order to go to the hospital. We made it just in time. I was at a 5.

I had been up for 3 nights. It turned out after I got home that I had bronchitis. The doctors and nurses heard me coughing but they did not acknowledge because I wasn't there for that. My fever 103.5. While in the hospital after I delivered Alex. Greg started making calls to friends. He told me I was being rude because I was to tired to speak on the phone.

The agreement was that Greg would take off 3 weeks to help me with the baby. I wanted him to bond with her on his own. Elaine had asked if she could come and stay during this time? I answered that would be great, however I have Greg at home with me for 3 weeks can we do it after that? I'm sure I would still need the help. Instead Elaine's feelings were hurt by that, Greg and I had to talk them into coming to C their first grandchild on all sides of his family. They came for maybe 10 minutes. The next day we realized Sue Noon had the keys to the house, yet Bob and Elaine had an extra set of keys to our house. She wouldn't even come into the hospital to drop them off and C Alex, we had to meet her in some obscure parking lot.

These people abandoned me and shit on my parade every time with this bad behavior. During the first 3 weeks, the dish washer broke. Greg thot it would be fun to cook on the wood stove. He just left the dishes. I asked him if he could do some laundry and some dishes? He told me no that this is his vacation too. Elaine and Bob were coming over with their friends to C Alex. Every glass and dish was dirty. When Elaine got to our house, she didn't pick up a dish or help out in any way. On Greg's first day going back to work, I asked him if he could write a check to pay our mortgage he told me no it's my job and he walked out the door.

I wasn't allowed to turn on the heat anywhere in the house. While having a new born I had to pack and hall in wood to make Greg happy. The kitchen was separated from the living room by a large wall. I wasn't allowed to turn on the heat in the kitchen. I had to call a repairman, because Greg couldn't be bothered while he was home. Plus he didn't want to spend the money. Elaine never showed up to help nor did she offer again. This family abandoned me every time I said no thank U. They took the word assertive and called me aggressive. They do not know the difference. Because Elaine is a Sociopath. She was the adult and she could of gotten herself help when her mother abandoned her as a child. People always tell me their story the first time I'm alone. I had compassion. She did not acknowledge anything about what I had been through. She had no compassion. Only judgment and unr3ealistic demands telling me I am nothing except the problem.

When we moved back to Seattle, the agreement was to stay with them for 6 months save money and buy a house. They insisted that we couldn't get anything new. I did every thing these people asked, and they just down graded me. I realized during a conversation one day that Elaine really didn't know Greg. She was in denial of her sons past in school. I knew by looking at her body language that this is going to be a problem. I spent 2 days on the phone with counselors to try and find the right one, to help us set boundaries with her and her compulsive lying. She got defensive and said I'm not paying for it. I said I will pay for it. While in there Elaine started to speak and she literally crossed her arms and turned her back on him.
During this time Elaine moved in Christy and Steve in. No one knew Christine. She was Bi polar. Weather U believe it or not her and I got along just fine. Christine and I went shopping one day. We discussed how things just don't add up. Steve and Greg were into the get rich quick schemes. At the time Christine and I didn't know that these 2 didn't know how to do anything because they were never taught anything. Christine worked at taco hell as a manager. Our home phone rang 24 7 with that company calling her over every little thing. Christine wouldn't get up to answer the phone that was right outside her door. Elaine wouldn't let anyone say anything about it, because when it came down to work, nothing else mattered. It was me getting up at night to answer the phone. Christine had another line installed up on the 3rd floor so she could work from home.

Christine had the idea to get a photo done of the four of us for Elaine and Bob. I told Christine I will set it up but you have to show up. I'm not going to keep rescheduling this. Yet I did 3 times already. The fourth time Steve Greg and myself are all standing in Bellevue at a photography studio and Christine didn't show up again. Steve called her and she said she wasn't coming. I asked Steve to hand me the phone. I did not yell at her, I reminded her of the agreement that we made. That I have rescheduled this for her and that this is the last chance to get this done B4 Christmas. Christine shows up.

On Christmas morning the 6 of us were up. Elaine likes to do a mimosa toast on Christmas morning. We are getting ready to open gifts and Christine gets up goes down stairs and went back to bed. I went down to get her and I said to her come on Christine we are a part of this family and this is their traditions. That we need to respect that. I told her she could go back to bed after. After we opened gifts I was standing in the kitchen with Elaine. I asked her if she liked her photo? Her answer to me was I know what U did.

This family down graded me every chance they got. They valued me and Alex so much that when I was looking at nursery sets, I was told I just want to spend money. I was sent home with Greg and Steve's old crib which wasn't even up to code. I was told that was hogwash. The play pen I was sent home with had 2 big holes in the side. I stuck the grateful dead stickers on the end to get this ugly crib to blend with the nursery set and the nursery I just did. At 9 weeks I lifted the rail and the slats fell out.

After being home alone with Alex, I figured out if I went back to work my paycheck would just go toward daycare. When Greg got home I told him I'm not going back to work. He said to me what happens after 3 years of staying home and playing with my child. Somehow I was inadvertently given a timeline. I had enough income to last a year. It wasn't good enuf. I worked for free at every thing I did. I had to do every thing the cheap way. The cheap way was that I was going to do it on my own. Greg couldn't C that.

Before I had Kai, I wrote his mother a 7 page letter about how they treated me. I told them I am the only one on both sides of your family that has provided grandchildren. That I went to all their gatherings packing and hauling every thing back and forth. I told her I'm not going to do this again with Kai and that they need to decide if they want us to be a family or not? Elaine called and apologized. It didn't last long. The same thing happened with Kai. She wanted to order cloth diapers like I had with Alex. I said no thank U bcuz I have dogs and these guys literally pound on the door and wake Alex up. I even complained to the company but it did not stop. Again Elaine's nose was out of joint. They left town to Arizona and once again didn't show up. Couldn't be bothered nothing interferes with their lives or their parties. Always the same thing even on holidays. A potluck, full bar and at times games. This family could not respect my traditions that I grew up with when I was a child. We spent every pagan holiday together as a family.

Anything my mother nor I bought for our children, Elaine would judge us. They were the most unrealistic opinionated people that I have ever met. They are the biggest lie.


U literally took a woman, who worked with special ed children. U took a woman who for personal growth when I got to California I went to pre-marital counseling at my church by myself. I went to one and one counseling. I went to group counseling, I did a series of dyantetics. I had spiritual advisor named Tammy that I worked with. I did volunteer work while in California for kids that were borderline gang members. I did this not because their was anything wrong with me I just wanted to make sure I didn't have a trigger hair temper like my mother. That I didn't humiliate people in order to get the upper hand. My councilors told me to run from my mother. That if I'm sitting there I am nothing like my mother. I learned one thing from my mother and that was how not to be.

After Alex was born I got my day care license. I didn't do it because how could I with no help from Greg. Plus Greg just had to get out of town and relax pretty much every weekend. Greg was OCD about that. The agreement was B4 we moved back from Cali. was that he would slow down. he didn't. In Cali. Greg went on 3 trips without me. I wasn't allowed to go on one. I had an opportunity to go with some friends on a cruise ship for 300 dollars six months down the road and Greg said no.

I told Greg in Cali when he went to sale his car, not to look at mine. I go to work. Xavier lived across the street and would pick Greg up and drive 3 blocks to his school. Greg told me that I need to take the bus because it's not fair to Xavier to have to drive those 3 blocks. I said no. The agreement was U were gonna ride your bike or walk. He told me I was a selfish bitch.

I got most of my children's toys from garage sales from people in the richer neighborhoods. Greg tried to get me to do these MLM schemes and new cell phone MLM schemes. Gotta do my part right Greg?

My first summer with Alex I had 3 trees taken out and I cleared an area for a garden. All on my own. I continued working on the house. Some how the electric bill and installing a new heating unit was my job. I couldn't get Greg to even change out one window once a month to help with the heat bill. I'd have to stay awake at night because Greg would sneak out of bed and turn the heat off completely in the house.

Alex was a year old and I was 4 months pregnant with Kai. I was in Kelso with family on my grand mothers death bed. We had arranged in advance to have a paint party. All one color. I was to tired to deal with color. Greg made me come home. He told me I was being rude. I had to leave Alex behind. I watched an RV fly thru the air and landed 6 feet in front of my truck. When I got home Greg was laying on the couch with his fang sign he does with his fingers. He said so U almost died huh? Nothing more. The next morning it was my responsibility to get the paint, the keg and food. And all the other supplies. While I was standing on a ladder at a closet door painting, the phone rings. It was my mother letting me know my grandmother who pretty much raised me had just died. Greg yells across the room like it's nothing, "Colleen your grandmother just died." He comes up behind me 20 minutes later to tell me I need to work faster that I'm being rude to these people for going to slow. 

I had to cook 2 dinners at night because Greg wouldn't eat the American food I made for my children. I figured out Gerber right away that it was watered down. I started using a food processor and feeding my children out of the garden. Greg wanted me to cook Asian food, yet his own mother didn't cook Asian food. My children had a balanced healthy diet. It was okay for Greg's mother or our friends to feed my kids mac and chez but if I did he'd tell me I'm a bad mother for this. Yet after we separated I had a case of mac and chez in the garage. In 2 weeks time it was gone. We as a couple used to eat mac and chez every now and then in Cali, yet now it's an issue. I fed my children out of my garden. We ate rice and different kinds of pasta for dinner. I was fully aware of what my children ate and when in order to create balance in my diet.

If I did some thing one time to be nice with Greg it was expected all the time. Like leaving my room when one of my children woke up. Yet my room had the Niagara adjustable bed, the TV and bathroom. One night Alex woke up like 10 times her first ear infection. After about the 10th time I hopped out of bed and said Fuck. Greg said how dare U that's your child, but Greg wasn't the one getting up. No. I sat all night long rocking her and he never even came in to ask us how she was doing.


Greg took my car to work. I tried taking voice lessons by Greg's work just to have something of myself. Out of 4 times Greg showed up twice. I had to quit. Somehow it was always my time that got impeded on not Greg's. I got Greg to change out some outlets. Most of them didn't work. Alex was 7 months old and crawling. Greg left the screws and screwdriver on the floor. I called him at work and I explained that we have a baby crawling now and he needs to remember to pick that up. He told me it wasn't his job. It's mine.

After a 4 day camping trip I asked Greg for a divorce. We got home early in the morning and we went to bed. I got up with Alex and Greg got up at noon, Alex 9 a.m. I had unloaded the back of the truck and got it all put away. I still had to return the trailer back to Everett. Somehow this was my responsibility too. He was in the back, at 2p.m. I asked him if he could bring in and take care of the cooler. It was heavy. He told me no he's relaxing. That was my last straw. Three weeks later I found out I was pregnant with Kai. That deep fatigue that I just wanted to curl up on the floor and sleep. Yet I didn't get any sleep during this pregnancy either.

Not because of Alex, she was easy. All I had to do was pick her up and take her to the spare room. Note not our king size bed, oh no Greg must not be disturbed. His highness works. Alex would just fall back to sleep. The neighbors moved in with 2 full grown rots and she let them out to back at 4:30. I was back at work as a comprehensive insurance with a school loan for 10 thousand in Tukwila. At 2 months I was up all night writhing in pain in my lower back. I almost miscarried Kai. Greg did not acknowledge. My boss had five kids a Mormon and he told me their is no reason someone as healthy as myself couldn't keep my milk in. That it's stress. I was back at work when Alex was a year old, at Red Robin I got fired unjustly so. Greg was gone on a 4 day trip and he ruptured his Achelous heal. Didn't go to the doctors nor did he come home. I just happened to of mailed in our disability insurance check by 3 days late, of course.

My grandmother and father gave us a Datsun that was painted gold and put together with bondo. Late 60's to early 70's. The starter always went out. The doors didn't lock or shut all the way and the seat belts didn't lock. It was a death trap. Greg refused to drive that car to work. By the time I was about 7 months pregnant with Kai, I had no choice but to get another vehicle. Greg had no concept nor as usual did he care. For 3 weeks I tried to get him to go with me. I tried sitting him down with comparison pricing on cars. He refused to participate. One night I called Greg at work and I told him to come down to this used car lot sale and sign for me to get a car. It was a ford exploder. which his dad cussed and swore at us about. This family had no concept.

Greg comes up behind me and said now he wants to switch off every other day, then week for him to drive the car to work. Now he expects me to pack and haul 2 car seats out of a 2 door car? I told him no not gonna happen. I was tired of all the packing and hauling just to make him happy. Greg parked up above where no one even saw his car. He told me I was a selfish bitch.

He nitpicked me about every thing. I was already and organized clean freak, yet I was also realistic that I can't do it all, especially after he dropped the ball at his own work with a fatal attraction. He lost his clientele. I had to go to Greg's work and sit with this couple and boss. I had to explain to this couple to take their problems else where. I had no choice but to live off of credit. Greg's income dropped from over 5000 a month down to 1500. He was gone all day and evening. I couldn't afford day care for 2 children. Kai was about 2 when I had to hall ass with 2 little girls in tow and open that Chiropractic business. I wasn't planning on this but we would lose every thing if I didn't.

My father was in Kennewick for 9 months. I had to commute while pregnant with Kai. Then my mother found him a location in Graham. There my father tried to live for about another 9 more months until I had to put him in a home in Puyallup near my sister. Also I had volunteered to do our 10 year reunion. I signed up for a company 13 months in advance and they didn't get the invites out until 2 months B4. Literally a couple days B4 Alpine Chiropractic was opened, my father died. Hating me. He felt I took his freedom away. The night of his funeral, while Greg and the girls were home and in bed I was in the office, staining trim. Got to do my part.  Kai was 2 and a half. Alex was 4 and a half when all this happened. Plus I was still volunteering for the indoor program and making meals. Doing every thing else by hand.

Greg called me one day when and told me that I had to do my part in helping to build the office. I did all the errand running. I found the location. I worked out the lease and worked with the city. I had to search for office furniture. I designed and picked out every thing while Greg was in Seattle. 

Just B4 Mary Stone came into my life I had refinanced the house and our broker said that I have the most beautiful credit she's ever seen. It was just this past winter that Greg caused a car wreck and blamed Adam. He collected the check which shut down my sisters claim for adjustments and doctors appointments. She had a full time day care. A single mother of 3 at this point. Greg said he would do Physical therapy on me. Right after the accident, my lower left vertebrae was jutting out of my neck and the same on my sister, only on the other side. We were turned facing each other. Greg guilted Adam into adjusting me. He always pawned me off on others. While pregnant with Kai, I couldn't get Greg to give me an adjustment I had to pay another local Chiropractor. I stayed with her until after Kai was born. Up until she switched to activator method. Myself and the 2 girls got the bird flu. Literally stuck at home for about 2 months the winter b4 Mary entered our lives.

I kept asking Greg to hire someone to do the books. I couldn't get into the office to work on the computer. I got behind on the books. Greg got me a small computer to work from home. I stay home with the girls in the summer. Right when I get it set up and ready to go Greg comes in and tells me that he is going to do it. That I need to stay home and take a break. I need to start going out to have some fun. I had just opened the yoga studio with alternative healthcare doctors. Acupuncturist. An MD that does alternative medicine and massage therapist. This is where Greg met Mary Stone and she wanted to incorporate my businesses and open them up to investors. I didn't find out any of this until later. Greg said that she's doing the books for free for 90 days.

I said Greg no one does anything for free. That I built those 2 businesses with my bare hands. That we will always be a small family run business.

Now I had a fixer upper, a business and 2 young children. Take note my 3 years weren't up. I was back at work.

What did I do B4 all this happened? I was one of the founding members of about 5 or 6 of us women whom opened the indoor playground. I dressed as the Easter Bunny for Christ sakes. I had obtained while pregnant with Kai legal guardian of my father from Eastern Washington to here. I was making our Christmas gifts for other people and always had. One woman in the group started a program for new mothers who move into the area to cook meals for them for the family for the first couple of weeks. I had built my own life with our friends. I had to take everything I learned from my past and put it into this office. Yet I wasn't allowed to pay for a sitter or daycare during this time. I did anyway's because I had no choice, but yes I paid.


While in California I worked out on average 3 hours a day at the gym. I went to gene Juarez a place I used to work to get a haircut. Once Greg took over being the only one working I wasn't allowed to go to the gym without a fight. I did it anyways for my own sanity. He hounded me and told me I could work out at home. Every six months I would need a haircut. I maintained it in my own in between. I cut our four dogs hair, my children's hair and Greg's hair but I couldn't get a hair cut. I'd get sat down and a talking to weather I was just wasting money on my own haircut?

Greg caused the rats in the house. Greg ruined my tent trailer, that he held over my head for purchasing. I truly had no choice. I can't take four days out of my week like almost every weekend, to keep renting one. I had 3 businesses and 2 children. I had the fixer upper that I was constantly working on. Greg had no concept. It was mine and only I knew how to care for it. Greg asked if he and Michael could take it up to the pass to ski? I said yes. Greg didn't lock it down and it got moldy. He bent the step because he drove with it out. He literally stood there once again after telling me I had to watch my tone with him, and then he attacked me about the heat bill. I redid that heat 4 times in that house. I got our bill down from 300 to 85 and some how it was all my responsibility.

He told me when we went to get milkshakes and fries after a soccer game, that the only way I could have a large fry is if I share it. UC I worked for free.

You in this legal system justified it. You over looked the crime committed by him and Mary Stone stealing my 3 businesses and 4 bank accounts. You overlooked the set up and made me responsible for all of it. I am done doing my part. You literally let another woman come in and steal my life in 90 days. Greg felt he owed her more than he did his wife of over ten years. His wife whom didn't drop the ball not one time. You made me responsible for everything. You even made me responsible for my own insurance. You allowed them after this crime that you overlooked to plant labels on my head for their set up. A woman who still showed up at her children's school every other week with their favorite lunch. She would even go out and play with the kids on the playground. We played four square or she'd bring the Chinese jump rope and teach them. She volunteered at her school with all these fund raisers, teaching our children in school that they have to do their part. You allowed them to plant labels on her head to hide a crime that these 2 committed. You don't have a justice system of Truth, you have a justice system based on whose gonna pay for someone else's education. You don't allow in your justice system for people to practice their civil liberties.

Broken Halos

Broken Halos/CS
Love this man's music. God is the mountain, the music, and the man. God is the author. God is the finisher. God is the redeemer and God is the punisher. IC allot of people on my rock playing God. Acting the judge, then some more answers came together watching Paul, The Apostle

It is well With My Soul/CR
Trumpet's sound when arrived home. This rock that was meant to feed all of Gods flock not just a few. Heaven on earth. Yes this is our home away from home, at the moment purgatory for others. Your little pyramid tax scheme still going on. You haven't learned anything throughout history and time. U as man and the elite and entitled double dipping in the kitty. Passing blanket laws to feed U and yours not God's flock. Look what U as man did up there? Not in my house U don't.

This Is How U Remind Me/Nickelback
This was a hard one for me. Not born into hate, more a sheep in the midst of wolves. Innocent as a dove. Clueless is more like it. When Luke said" no one has walked with God" my first thot is I have. Not knowingly. Even if the first words out of my mouth "Jesus Christ are you nuts?" He told me in November 2015, I just forget. I don't think like that. Then it hit me who else from our history walked with Jesus Christ? Her name Mary Madgelane. Their was no holy grail on the table, because it's always been about the people. His flock not yours. These two twin flames.

How Great Thou Art/Selah
It hurt me when I had to ask Kai, "why not me? U think I'm unworthy of Gods love?" Then I see the show Legion and what was she? A server. A pregnant server. I was pregnant with Kai working at Red Robin. I was working at Coco's when I quit my job as a manager of  a salon when I met Greg. Then when I walked out the door at TA, I heard U R done serving the food. Jesus was the Messiah and the temple of God isn't the only place God can be worshiped. This is our rock this is my church. I'm Judas mother fucking priest, not you as man sitting up there wearing the wrong white collar. My mountain, my church.

Come Thou Fount/JL
Christ asked us 2 care 4 the world not rule it. I can C why man doesn't own the keys to heaven. 2018 and we still look down on women. U can't let go of the guideline and rules that "you are not the virtuous one's siting up there to ever judge love. U R not the all seeing eye, that own that God particle that Ion, that atom is Gods. God giveth God taketh. Pretty old fashioned and simple wouldn't U say? Let it go and give up your burdens to God, whomever that may be, because God created those Gods that U pray to. This Big Bang Theory is what? Science. Hey how about the heavens that surrounds this rock? That sure is science. No science and religion don't refute God. God refutes science and religion. U couldn't let go of the control in your religion when JC stood in front of that woman anyone here like to cast the first stone, who is without sin?

Boulevard Of Broken Dreams/Green Day
UC Gregory I told U those fault lines R about to shift. I promise I want the Gregorian to fall out of the sky. What's in a name? Volumes. My first broom a dirt devil and Yahweh I'm the sweeper of the stars. If we live live for the lord. We die we die for the lord. Weather we live or die we belong to the Lord. Only the meek not the elite shall inherit my rock. I'm Ares, I'm ram, I'm Gods little lamb. Back one last time to get this mother fucking machine off of my rock. Time for those Malakites to go.

Here Is Gone/TGGD
It began in Jerusalem. Moses and Mt Sinai. Look where I stood with my right hand in the air? Mt. Si, the mountain with the broken heart. Mary Cochran Stone, U steel my life I steel yours. I still need a little Holy Mackerel bleeder fish for bait for that serpent entity sitting in the ground. Like a dark vortex of energy. Well I'm thinking Mary your it. It has now come to roam. To live in Christ, to die is to gain. We begin anew. A new birth. A new life. Heaven on earth, a new church for all of Gods flock. No more walls.

She Will Be Loved/Maroon Five
I am ready for my four horsemen, but my left arm and leg are shutting down again. I know what I want to say, but I started to show signs of a stroke in my face and things started to go gray. Back to the ER, back to the last guy that did my neck surgery. The very same guy that I kept trying to ask questions and get some help for these weird symptoms that just won't go away.

Marry Me/TR
Stay/Sugarland

Mama'a Broken Heart

Mama's Broken Heart/ML
Beatrice Bishop
The Lily to the Rose
Bed of thorns
Bed Of Roses
Fig Newton
Fig Tree
The Depression of the Fig
Holy Mary
Mother Mary
Rose Mary
The First Cut Is The Deepest/SC
The Lily To The Rose
Foye Lily
Foye Doris
Belinda LaRae
Darci LaRae
Kimberly Foye
Danielle Foye
Jeremy James
Zina Marie
Todd LaGene
Kimmie LaRae
Courtney LaRae
Jordan LaRae
Jillian LaRae
Colleen LaNae 040168 The Colt, The Joker, The Fool
The First Seed
Is the Rose
Alexandra LaNae 011395
Kiley Rae 021797
Elijah Todd 
Jimmy Jane

Come Thou Fount

It Don't Hurt/
Yes it does. It cuts deep like a knife inside my heart. Oh God! I have been put through the ringer of Truth. I love my four horsemen. I didn't so much at first.

She Got The Best Of Me/LC
Well quite frankly I didn't know. I have realized in the last couple days. I am a monkey. I'm not ashamed to say that I love my monkies. Little curious Georges in life, our children. It's the ego in humanity that has destroyed my rock, our heart. Where the fuck did our heart go? I stood in the parking lot and screamed, no! No! No! U can't do this. God didn't do this man and ego did.

I Drive Your Truck/LB
By the way I hate your truck so much I don't want to be touched. Yes I have the bigger answers to the universe. I want to run up your big man viking body and I want to slap you back and forth with my little monkey hand. I can't believe I'm actually the little monkey being made to move mountains. I mean really I can't move one man how do they expect me as human to move a mountain?

If I told U/DR
Do U know what that little girl told me that showed up at my door? I mean I knew I figured out the grays. I'm a Grey part of evolution. I'm excepting that a little more. Still not sure what to do with that knowledge. It still wigs me out. I can't deny my family tree line. Off track again. Her crazy mother said his name or that space ships name that runs this rocks name is Eagle.

Marry Me/TR
I hate U. Marry U Try this one on for size, I hate U for this. I hate U for every moment of this. Talk about a tortured soul that hey U as man and big brother just want to destroy me and mine. OMGOD! I want that serpent gone that sits at the base of Mt. Si. It does exist. Naive me standing out there, Uhm! So what is that down there? The answer the fallen angel. R U fucking nuts? This does not exist. I heard of a synagogue got blown up. Men women and children

Head Over Boots/JP
got blown up for what? Faith. Something they committed their whole lives to having. I truly don't care the faith. I don't. U got it hold on to it. Keep it. As much as God is energy the creator, weeeellll, those grays no one understands? We are them. Those four horsemen, I love and adore but yeah I as human fear them too.

Superman/5 4 fighting

The Rose/BM
I hate U. I hate U for this. Whats the point? My own government that has claimed to represent and fight for freedom, destroyed that. U literally industrialized and sold out Truth. U created your own self worth. I might be small but you sitting up there set your price to high. I'm so sorry I married the Serpent, but don't U touch my babies because they have heart.

U Raise Me Up/RW
No U don't U piss me off. Talk about rejection. Rejection of the heart. Rejection of the Truth. I sit alone and scream. I scream because no one wants to hear me. They want Truth but like Jack said U can't handle the Truth. Not U as man but guess what, I am woman. U will not destroy me. I am woman. I am your mother regardless of everything I have been put through, I as woman, stand. Get the fuck off my rock you entitled elites white mother fucking bitches.  Get the fuck off.

Come Thou Fount/JL
God rules this rock not U as man. Ever will it be. Keep your God love your God. We love we don't destroy.

Total Eclipse Of The Heart

I'm not sure anymore how I feel about all this? Rejected and betrayed by own family tree line? Yeah rejection of the human heart is huge and it can only be rejected so much. Total Eclipse Of The Heart is right. Looking at these politicians and the direction they're going? More taxes and making a living off of insurance? RU fucking nuts? I have so many stories to tell. I loved figuring out the greys but it doesn't mean I want to see another one standing in my room. It weirds me out too, however they are on our side. I don't have the answers our government and humanity wants. What I have is what I know up to this point. That's how they protect and no drug ain't going to bring out that Truth if God and my family tree line don't want U to have it. Look what we have done with what little we do know? U as man play God? I am so sick of hearing some of your advertisments speaking against a womann's rights and God. Not your place not your space. PLAIN AND SIMPLE. Man is unworthy bcuz I have seen throughout history and time how man has lied to keep control of the wrong power. It will never be mans place to play God.

Can't fight This Feeling/REO
My left arm and neck weren't working so great or my feet. It don't matter yet it's all matter. U as human carry that God particle. What do U want to do with it? Play God or give it back to Him in Faith and family. Which is what he stands for. It's pretty simple up there, it's purgatory here. I still have hell to empty and send home so we can have our whole heart as one. One unit to protect this rock meant to feed all of God's flock not just the few that industrialized us to feed themselves.

We Will Rock You/Queen
Mine and Kai's favorite CD. Oh God, don't U bother to label me with anger issues. I'm angry at what U as man has done to my rock and God's flock. Take your taxes, your insurance and justified system and get the flock off my rock. Let's just keep feeding the machine that truly has no heart. God and all those God's that came before U do exist, you as man no longer get to disrespect or deny because your such arrogant shits U think your God.

Hit Me With Your Best Shot/PB
I really have no issue with the video that they want me to make. My body keeps failing me. I don't understand with elections coming up what they want me to do. It is literally repeat history. All IC is repeat history that the elite and entitled think they are worthy to do this to Gods flock. Hey if I don't have it neither do U. U may not live in a mansion, but U know what U will be at peace and happy. Truly I don't want a mansion, God no I gotta clean that shit up.

Take It Easy/Eagles
I'm still so angry that it's me. Even after I have been told through different stages about who I am, I don't walk around going I'm your Messsssiiiiiahhhh. I'm mother natures daughter and I will get vengeance.I don't think like that. I walk away. No my Truth after being accosted in more ways than one in this land of freedom protecting your property lines with all your red lining and blue lining to feed your tax system? I do not think so. It's a machine, not man.  It's an entity but the rich and elite will want to take down the mother by taking down the children. Hey how about the father's children? What does he care. Like others U want peace yet U can't stand for peace of humanity and let those four Horsemen that are hear for mankind?

Rhiannon/FM